My Beautiful Sister Karen Typing this still feels unreal and I wake up everyday hoping that this nightmare is over but then I remind myself that you are at peace now “chilling” like you always told me to! For the last week and a half I’ve had so many thoughts and many cry’s too. I’ve pinned our WhatsApp chat and I keep waiting for for to light up with a message from you asking how I’m doing I’ve thought about my earliest memory of you and for some reason it’s you being told off by mum for having a go at me lol! I think I’d “snitched” on you about something and mum told you off and grounded you…. I’m sorry for snitching on you big sis lol I’ve thought about the times that we’ve shared and the lovely cups of tea you always made. Oh, I do need a “Karen cup of tea” right now! I’ve thought about the times when I’ve been at my absolute lowest and you and mum came to my rescue each and every time! I’ve thought about all the times I’ve depended on you for one thing or another and you have never, ever let me down I’ve thought about the 29th June 2018 when you met me at the Conquest entrance, I was late (as usual), but you were my rock on that day when Karima came in to the world and I’ll forever be grateful for that and everything you have done for me! I’m also thinking about the day dreams I used to have while I was in hospital, me and you growing old together and meeting up fortnightly for days out in town with grandkids or going up to mums for cups of tea I miss you so much Karen. You’ve gone too soon. This will never, ever, make sense to me but I know that you are in a better place Say hello to Daddy Lai for me I love you so much Rest well Big Sis xx